had a weird dream yesterday. i kept having weird dreams lately. and now, it's going to rain. and i keep seeing the lightning. it's terrible. shuyi told me he went back to school yesterday to see the teachers with some gerls. =)
O level chinese is just a couple of weeks away? and i hadnt even do the 5 year series we bought. i just dont feel like studying. i know i shouldnt have said this kinda things now. but i just cant help it. whatever. i feel like taking a bus from sengkang to the other part of singapore, just by myself. alone. i shall do this, later on? or maybe tomorrow. =)
i was browsing friendster. guess what i saw? his picts. and they are so nice and beautiful. and it's taken on my birthday. so on my bday, he's taking neoprint and studying at shopping mall. that's him. he has his own life. i have my own too. i shouldnt be a noob and interfere with his life. or do stupid things like staring at the msn screen for like minutes when he's online, and thinking what to talk to him. but i just cant help it. how i wish he can stare straight into my eyes and tell me he dun wanna have anything to do with me. and tell me to get the hell out of his life. taht would be ALOT better. but now, it's like things hanging in the mid air. i really duno what to do.
exams are coming. i shouldnt think too much about this kinda stupid thiings.
