i'm feeling very sad now. very very sad. so sad that i cant seem to breathe. why? why is it one moment i'm so happy, the next moment happiness seems so far away. i thought ive already let it go, but then i realised i haven. his words are cold, just like he is answering for the sake of answering. i feel like a stupid fool, a big one. waiting in front of that squarish thing, hoping he would give the answer that i wanted. ha! ive been a fool for so long without realizing it. holding on to a dream, hoping that it will come true eventually. it only happens in fairytale and drama, not in the reality. what he wrote to me in that piece of paper, its just bullshit. he just wrote it for the sake of writing. he wrote it because my friends requested him to. he wrote it out of pity. oh well, to pacify that girl and make that i-am-oh-so-crazy-in-love-with-you stupid girl happy, only for that day. he must be laughing at me for taking his words seriously. "if we communicate more we can know each other better as a friend". to think i still remember that until today. communicate your ass when you took 3457654365 hours to reply my one instant message. communicate your head when you talk to me with that kinda oh-i-wanna-end-this-conversation tone. don't make me happy with words. don't give me hopes when you cannot even accomplish one of it. i feel so dead. yeah, go on and laugh at this stupid girl. this freaking fucking naive bitch who is so into this guy, for the freaking past five years. i have this urge to go for a drink. it makes me totally oblivious to what is happening and the best thing is, it makes me forget who am i, makes me forget the fact that i'm so heartbroken.
