to adore or to abhor - is just a thin line difference.my dear friend, i used to like you a lot a lot. i think that we are just so made for each other, you knew me inside out and you're always there for me when i need you. i can always count on you. but things are different now, very different. now you do things that i can't even comphrehend or understand. i don't know the reasons behind all your actions. you may think its fun but to me i don't think so. they are angry because of what you do. but to me, a sense of confusion and sadness welled up in me.
people come asking me why, why are you doing these? even i'm lost for words. i don't know what answer to give them, i don't know how to explain to them. you were not like this before, you are not the you that i knew years back then. i don't know what happened, really. little actions that you do may seem insignificant, but its enough to kill me and put me to tears.
i always believed that friends come and stay in my life, be it those short-lived ones or those that are going to stay with me till the end of my life, they all come for a purpose. i treasure it so much, but now i know its time to let go, for real. its pointless for me thinking that some time some day we can go back to where we used to be. a bystander sees the whole picture more than those who are involved in it.
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am i too stupid or am i too naive like what others said, i can't seem to understand people around me. the actions they do and the things they said. since you already knew she wasn't going to be good, why are you still clinging around with her? you said tonnes of negative things about her to me and right before my eyes, you're behaving as though you can't live without her. is this how the world works? is this what they said interpersonal skills? to me, don't like means i don't like and i'll never try to act as if i'm very into you and let you think that "oh! i'm so in love with you that i'm going to die without you."
people are living in a superficial world, and slowly, many lost their own nature and became superficial too. they don't practice what they preach. is this the world that i'm going to face out there?
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people tends to think a lot on those late nights, like today. i just need a platform to rant here and there. i'm fine, its just that i'm a little bit confused and lost, nothing else. :D
