as the title suggests, i'm not feeling sad becos of PMS or moodswings. perhaps i was too much of a perfectionist. i wanted everything to be perfect and hoped everything would turn out to be the way i want it to be. but many a times in life, things don't always go the way you want it to be. the higher your expectations, the greater the sense of loss when you doesn't achieve it. i want to be happy, not just
appear to be happy. perhaps i'm just a novice in this field. other's are a bed of roses while mine is full of pricks.
maybe i just needed a little htht in this quiet night to put me to sleep.