why do i have to hear it from other people rather than yourself? perhaps you have your reasons for not telling me. but being your best friend it hurts to hear from other people's mouth. all of a sudden my whole heart fell to the abyss. i hate myself for not being someone whom you can rely one. perhaps i neglected our friendship because of my greed to spend more time with my boyf. i hate myself for being so stupid. not noticing any problem when you texted me unusual messages. that feeling totally sucks big time.